Daydreaming..

Posted Thursday, October 23rd 2008

Recently, I more often than not, catch myself drifting away to somewhere, thinking about what was and what could be.

I’m thinking about the past quite a lot. About my days spent in Greece. I honestly miss those times. Yeah, there were hard times, pressure from uni obligations, self-inflicted nervousness and sometimes general melancholy, but overall, those were great times. I met some genuinely good, generous and caring people (shout out to Dim, Jovan & Anton), people that are my friends to this day, people I know that I would do anything for, and I’m sure they’d do anything for me.

I grew up over those few years.. I learned to take care of myself, do my own chores, clean up after myself and most importantly, I learned how to give myself a much needed reality check sometimes.

Yet, somehow, lately, I constantly feel like everything is waaay over my head. I guess it’s just a very strange.. or rather, difficult period. Alongside pressure and looming deadlines at work, I’m also dealing with a number of issues-of-the-personal-kind, and at times feel like I’m losing my grip, my self control. I find myself being a lot louder, a lot more volatile than I should be. And I don’t like myself when I become like that..

I’m just checking out my archives here, and I seem to have a few posts that I’ve never published. I used to write here quite often, and it helped me vent my stress and my anxiety. The posts I haven’t published are just that, posts that I’ve started to write, but never got to publish. They’re there, a small reminder of my.. I don’t know.. complacence.

Anyway.. Important things now! I’ve got a new car! And E and I are going on a road trip tomorrow! I can’t wait!

Also, a quick tip to random_monkey. He’s provided my background tune for the past couple of days.. Check out Rain Today, and give the rest of his stuff a listen too..

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